Walking in the Rain

Thursday, July 20, 2006

hmm. okay, i realise that the previous post was a bit harsh. but nonetheless, it was how i was feeling at that point of time. hmm. will see how it goes tomorrow.

okay. anw. if you actually look at today's urban, you'll see something really lovely((: its soo gorgeous and cute! ahhhh. *melts. really, really CUTE. look for this person who's winking. HAHA.
i saw this girl reading it this morning and i was like trying my best to peep at it. haha! she must have thought i was mad.

hello you((:

LLJ;
9:03 PM;

Monday, July 17, 2006

if i have to go through this life without any friends, then i will. i'll befriend myself, okay?
i'll be my own friend.
okay, whatever. nobody's gonna read this anyway.
i'll sit there alone and grow fat. isn't that what im doing now anw?

call me whatever you want. dont bother worrying about my feelings and how hurt i am on the inside. dont waste the space that your using to store all those nasty things that you may want to say to me. cos im just not that important after all.
im stupid?
so maybe i am. and i may not have such wit, or such a wide vocabulary of abusive words. but im glad, cos i know that i will only be making others feel the way im feeling now. did you really not even bother to caare about how all that might make me feel?

LLJ;
6:51 PM;

its amazing how that special someone could brighten up your day with just a simple gesture. its so sweet.

ballet yesterday and it was so cool. something really embarrassing but nice at the same time happened today. so, we were doing this step. some of us only. i was standing there so prepared and all, when in came.. EYE CANDY((: remember the chiobu? haha, okay she was very pretty. somehow i was just too fascinated. i looked at xiaoxuan who was sitting down, and just burst out laughing. cos we've had pretty good memories of her walking in in the past. ah, she was pretty like usual. kay, thats not the point. i was laughing and ohmygosh forgot all the steps pls. i like din know how to do anything. so malu. plus i was laughing somemore. hai, the wonders of beauty((: haha, then talking about her aft that. hah, and xiaoxuan got the compliment of her life man! haha, pretty girl((: loves*

anw, i LOVE france STILL even though the world cup is over. just like how i loved them since BEFORE the world cup alr. yups, and im so proud of them even though they finished second in the greatest football championship. and now they're 4th on the fifa world rankings! yeah thats to all those who critisised them and thought i was nuts to support a team like them before the world cup started. it was a tragic way to lose though. but its okay, they're the cutest bunch of guys pls! thierry henry, zinedine zidane, the coach and all. and i dont blame zidane cos i think racism is just really really low. yup, i can't wait for this whole world cup craze thing to be over so that i can watch football in peace without people telling me this and that. and people telling me that i dont know anything abt football even though i've been watching all the seasons since the last world cup.

anw, FRANCE. i can memorise the tune of the national anthem!

LLJ;
6:30 PM;

Friday, July 07, 2006

EVEN NOW;

Even now
when there's someone else who cares
When there's someone home who's waiting just for me
Even now I think about you as I'm climbin' up the stairs
And I wonder what to do so she won't see

That even now
when I know it wasn't right
And I've found a better life than what we had
Even now I wake up cryin' in the middle of the night
And I can't believe it still could hurt so bad

Even now
when I have come so far
I wonder where you are,
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
Even now
when I come shining through,
I swear I think of you
And how I wish you knew,
Even now

Even now
when I never hear your name
And the world has changed so much since you've been gone
Even now I still remember, and the feeling's still the same
And this pain inside of me goes on and on,
even now

Even now
when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
Even now when I come shinin' through
I swear I think of you
and God, I wish you knew
Somehow,
Even now

LLJ;
8:30 PM;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANE!!
my meimei is 15 today. going up quite fast nowadays. shes got guys asking for her number!if growing up's the case, i think our present's quite suitable. lol. anyway, i just wanna say that i really love her((:

went to taiyi's house tgt with debbie to change, then we headed to j8 to buy the present. took sooo long cos taiyi couldnt find her white shirt. debbie was so SEXY sia. then took so long to choose the present too. its so embarrassing shopping with debbie, seriously. anw, her brilliant idea for the present.. was super embarrassing. got a pencilcase too. then to toa payoh for lunch. we were late. diane and her friends were there alr. my lovely mei mei treated us((: so SWEET. totally full, then back to bishan. took prints. haven took any since ages ago. homed after that.

my term3 duty is 4b2. i think sec4 classes are so scary. i'm like, not myself, every morning.

was feeling abit down today drg physics, because of someone. i wanted to write down how exactly i was feeling, how i din know what to do and all. i realised im not the best person at reflecting, and putting my thoughts down into words. aye, if only you* could just be able to read my mind. know how i feel, all the things i think. all the things i want to let you know, but don't have the courage to even open my mouth whenever i get the chance. it'll make things much easier.

LLJ;
8:09 PM;

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

music marathon was damn cool! went for the closing cermony ytd((:
i wanted to go see diane and taiyi perform at 930. but. too lazy. so went later abt 12. stupid debbie yeo pangseh-ed us and din come. met charlene while walking to millenia and she told me abt someone. so sweet((: met diane and her class and we tried to push our way to the front row. hah. i was quite extra cos i was the only one not from their class)): what to do?
sang many songs, and it was super fun. all the nice songs. my voice kinda disappeared for a lil while. i was very hot and sweating like mad. yup. so poorthings who had to touch me. it was really fun la, so many people there. i was just waiting for the singing to begin. MISS LOH and miss goh leading. MISS LOH. aye.. so sweet and nice nice nice. haha, it should have been longer and it should never never end!! yup, i was waiting for the to god be the glory part. i enjoyed myself like crazy for several reasons;) ended with sch song and cheer. so nice.
anw, aft tht lunched at carl's. super full. bluffed debbie that we were going shopping and not going for dance. haha, said taiyi was in the fitting room((:
diane's father sent us to sch and we were late. lol. mr gerrard in a GOOD mood, din scold. dance was nice. but a bit tiring. practised the one dance only today and i think its looking better? except the costume. taiyi's gonna become the next miss jackie. by my reckoning, its just gonna take a few more weeks. shd start calling her MISS taiyi. mrs wong was damn funny. she told hannah to brg 3 br*s next week so that we can see what kind of cup is better? oh gosh. so sick. bus-ed home aft that.
yupp.

i'm only looking forward for school to begin because of this one thing.

i think this music marathon has reminded me how much i love (or loved for that matter) certain people. the 3 times i went there, i've had different experiences with different people. many people, in fact. and i really wished i could spend some time with them or smth.

kinda revitalised my love and craze for *** too((:

LLJ;
4:57 PM;