"i want you to take your time,
take all the time you need.
cos you have a choice to make.
and the last time i had a choice to make,
i chose wrong."
-derek shephard

LLJ;
9:41 PM;

this is for diane((

Sweet. really sweet, it makes your heart melt. a playboy, not in a bad way, but in flirtatious, experienced kind of way. your walking down a long pathway, close together. he looks sideways at you, smiles at you with a somewhat flirtatious look, and then reaches for your hand. nice, warm hands. nice grip, so that when yours is in his, it feels like it could remain there forever. a seven page letter. not scrawny. hold hands along beaches. you sit together, and no one really needs to speak. but you can feel each other's presence, and that's more than enough.

hope you understand.




met taiyi, debbie and diane just now! i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE them. talked abt loads of stuff. we just hung out, talked, but it was soooo nice. i like.

LLJ;
10:40 PM;

idontlikerejection.
butthenwhodoes?

i've done my e-assessment twice alr, and i need to do it again til i get full marks. sighs.

its the start of the school holidays
...
i have nothing to say.
its a relieve i guess, for one week, there'll be no new work thrown at me so i can hopefully grasp whatever's been thought so far. then there's studying for maths test. and there's homework and tutorials. and there's packing my luggage. then there's dance.
there's no time for friends. no time for shopping. no time for going out. no time for waking up late and sleeping late. damn, theres no free time at all. my stupid schedule is so fully packed.
but, lets try to be positive. four full days of dance, could turn out to be fun. i might, lose a bit of weight. studying with the little time i have could be fulfilling. and maybe, not having school officially, could help.
its the holidays, i mean, dont people usually mark the start of it by celebrating and all?
aye, you know those pacts you make every break, that your gonna be super hardworking and complete all your wrk, dont procrastinate and all. but in the end, you still chiong all your work the night before? haha, okay this time, i think i really Do need to stick to it.
in fact, im looking forward to it. gees, there's smth highly ironic abt the last few paragraphs huh?


yesterday i was talking to peiying and desmond, and i realised some stuff. haha, desmond seems to know alot of things. keep eavesdropping on us! humph. but i guess what he said is true. and peiying's right too. but i cant help it la. can see ta yao ke shi ta bu gan, dui mah? i do feel bad for him too, but i mean, what can i do right?

haha, okay so last night, i was talking to diane. she was soo funny pls! showed her a pic of some guys and she said:
(quote)
DIANE says:
OMG!!
DIANE says:
u mean they look like dat now?
DIANE says:
NOW?!!
DIANE says:
as in today!! they look like daT?

haha, ehh pls, it wsnt too long ago that you were that short and looked that small okay! i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE her! and then she said:
" i dun wna make a choice now.. i thk its not e right time for me "
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
it was sooo cute, i kept laughing pls. and it was supposed to be serious okay!
korkor loves you, my darling mei((:
ended up calling her, cos msn's really hard to communicate by sometimes. haha, and the call greatly improved my chinese i think. LOL

okay so anw, just wanted to say this to you((:
you're really nice and i hope i havent in anyway hurt your feelings or anything like that. seriously, its not like i've chosen, and honestly, i dont feel i'm obliged to. so, yeah.

im not even sure, if i want any of it now..
haha, hope this doesnt constitute the bet?

LLJ;
11:07 AM;

you know how the more you hang on to stuff, the more they're gonna want to pull away? true.

and you know how whe your daddy's little girl, he's likely to be the one who's the most protective, suspecting you and all? true.

and how meredith, in the episode of grey's when burke proposes, says in the backgroud "cos the unexpected, simply pales in comparison to the expected"? quite true.


im beginning to think that i should be studying harder than i am now (lol) and start paying attention drg lectures. im alr a bit lost and falling behind in tutorials. well, some anyway. plus im going away in twoweeks time and im gonna miss a full one and a half weeks of school, which means i'll be even further behind. and im gonna have dance everyday next week. so, not much time for catching up and all. ohwell.

besides that, school's been fine. good, actually, getting to know people better and all. just wished i had a bit more time. on monday we came in our new uniforms. haha so no more skirt that reaches the bottom of you knee. lol.

haha, i told andrea, pris, huishan and kailing abt the eyecandy. sorry, ex-one. its kinda malu looking back at it. lol. yes, so he's not all that good looking. pris says she knows my type now. the SWEET and not necessarily gorgeous looking. heh, true. it's always better if he makes you melt, and is not just pleasant for your eyes. hehe.

speaking of sweet, people have been really sweet lately. ((: nice.

on sunday i saw celine at church! i miss her so much. shes my person. you know like how christina yang(grey's) says, she's my person, if i kill someone, she's the one who'll help me throw the body in the river. (something to that effect) she's the one i go tell everything to, you know? and she'll understand, and we'll gossip, and giggle, and oogle. lol. i LOVE her(: tld her lots of stuff that day. abt someone and someone. its different telling other people, and they dont really wanna listen too/

OH and if any of you out there needs some chicken essence, just ask. heh heh.

LLJ;
9:41 PM;